12:05 PM- It was hot already this morning when the kids stomped downstairs for breakfast sounding more like a herd of elephants than a 5,6, 10 and 11 year old. We had tried to sleep in the bedroom hoping it would be cooler, but alas I got up several times to bitch and moan about the heat before crawling back into my sweaty bed next to my sweaty mate.
I dreamed about my teacher, which was very comforting, it has been a long time since she's entered my dreams. I've been floundering in particular with my aspiration and was hoping for some kind of sign that I had not been thrown off the path. I had even debated writing her yesterday, although I really didn't have anything to say. Sometimes an aspirant just needs a little bit of a nudge. It is amazing to me that when I really do flounder seriously I am always given that nudge.
Going to enter temple now. Didn't get to last night.
9:10 pm.- Just hailed the sunset in silence, the sky darkening quickly before me and mosquitoes taking their nightly fill on my legs. I didn't care so much for the insect phleb attack if it meant a few moments of silence.
The day was spent with the little ones getting progressively dirtier in the backyard. Several times they had to be ushered into the air conditioning and served glasses of water because of bright red cheeks and overheating. The older girls stomped all over the neighborhood stalking a missing cat whose sign was posted on the telephone poles around the neighborhood. When they bored of that hunt they approached me one at a time hoping for ice cream or some kind of snack. It is amazing how much a bored kid can eat in the summertime.
Temple time was short, had a chance to bathe and do an LBRP and pray. I've been using the Sephirotic Prayer which is in the Greater Key of Solomon for about six months now. Life is so much calmer if I just banish and pray. A great contrast to a year ago when I blew myself up by doing invocations daily that apparently overlapped. Also, I learned the hard way, the Bornless Ritual does nothing less than invoke the Demiurge upon the user.
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