12:05 PM- It was hot already this morning when the kids stomped downstairs for breakfast sounding more like a herd of elephants than a 5,6, 10 and 11 year old. We had tried to sleep in the bedroom hoping it would be cooler, but alas I got up several times to bitch and moan about the heat before crawling back into my sweaty bed next to my sweaty mate.
I dreamed about my teacher, which was very comforting, it has been a long time since she's entered my dreams. I've been floundering in particular with my aspiration and was hoping for some kind of sign that I had not been thrown off the path. I had even debated writing her yesterday, although I really didn't have anything to say. Sometimes an aspirant just needs a little bit of a nudge. It is amazing to me that when I really do flounder seriously I am always given that nudge.
Going to enter temple now. Didn't get to last night.
9:10 pm.- Just hailed the sunset in silence, the sky darkening quickly before me and mosquitoes taking their nightly fill on my legs. I didn't care so much for the insect phleb attack if it meant a few moments of silence.
The day was spent with the little ones getting progressively dirtier in the backyard. Several times they had to be ushered into the air conditioning and served glasses of water because of bright red cheeks and overheating. The older girls stomped all over the neighborhood stalking a missing cat whose sign was posted on the telephone poles around the neighborhood. When they bored of that hunt they approached me one at a time hoping for ice cream or some kind of snack. It is amazing how much a bored kid can eat in the summertime.
Temple time was short, had a chance to bathe and do an LBRP and pray. I've been using the Sephirotic Prayer which is in the Greater Key of Solomon for about six months now. Life is so much calmer if I just banish and pray. A great contrast to a year ago when I blew myself up by doing invocations daily that apparently overlapped. Also, I learned the hard way, the Bornless Ritual does nothing less than invoke the Demiurge upon the user.
Friday, June 3, 2011
Thursday, June 2, 2011
An iv19 Sol 12° Gemini, Luna 27° Gemini Dies Jovis Thursday, June 02, 2011 e.v. 10:49 PM
I woke this morning to being stomped on, having pulled the mattress into the living room to sleep under the air conditioner. It's gotten hot already, and this is what we do every year in this old 1920 farmhouse we live in. Kids had the Qubo channel blasting and my husband's Star Wars' video game had some kind of alarm going off which apparently had invaded my dreams.
Spent the day on the computer reading a new friend's blog about his book which he's working on called the Family of Dog Series and some of his completed chapters which he had sent me. When I was finished with that I picked up the Book of Lies by Aleister Crowley and had almost finished it (in the bathroom, where I get my best reading done) when one of my daughters apparently put a wet washcloth inside of it causing me to have to postpone finishing it until it's dry now.
Got the peaches from the meager harvest of the little broken tree in the back yard which I have so valiantly tried to save these four years we've lived here and is now propped up by boards and a large wooden cross and I cut them up and made a cobbler for the kiddos as expected every year. Before I started the whole ordeal I went into the back yard and thanked the tree again and then hailed the sun with Liber Resh vel Helios- a solar adoration I do four times a day.
The cobbler took forever to finally cook, and afterward I bathed the two littlest ones, hailed the sun one more time at sunset and shoo'd them all back upstairs to 'kidland' to bed. I'm so grateful for bedtime, the only time of the day when my mind and body and thoughts are mainly my own.
I have intention to sit down tonight after midnight for meditation, using Liber E, doing some asana sitting and pranayama in my temple. During the school year I generally do these meditations at noon until three when the kids are in school. During the winter and break times, I'm lucky to get to the temple at all, and generally it is better received by all if I do it while everyone is asleep.
Spent the day on the computer reading a new friend's blog about his book which he's working on called the Family of Dog Series and some of his completed chapters which he had sent me. When I was finished with that I picked up the Book of Lies by Aleister Crowley and had almost finished it (in the bathroom, where I get my best reading done) when one of my daughters apparently put a wet washcloth inside of it causing me to have to postpone finishing it until it's dry now.
Got the peaches from the meager harvest of the little broken tree in the back yard which I have so valiantly tried to save these four years we've lived here and is now propped up by boards and a large wooden cross and I cut them up and made a cobbler for the kiddos as expected every year. Before I started the whole ordeal I went into the back yard and thanked the tree again and then hailed the sun with Liber Resh vel Helios- a solar adoration I do four times a day.
The cobbler took forever to finally cook, and afterward I bathed the two littlest ones, hailed the sun one more time at sunset and shoo'd them all back upstairs to 'kidland' to bed. I'm so grateful for bedtime, the only time of the day when my mind and body and thoughts are mainly my own.
I have intention to sit down tonight after midnight for meditation, using Liber E, doing some asana sitting and pranayama in my temple. During the school year I generally do these meditations at noon until three when the kids are in school. During the winter and break times, I'm lucky to get to the temple at all, and generally it is better received by all if I do it while everyone is asleep.
Welcome to My World- June 2, 2011 ev
A long time ago I had a thriving blog, but then the website it was on went down and I haven't picked it up elsewhere. It had begun when I was a new student of the mysteries, my two youngest children were very small and my teens weren't nearly as independent. I think I had a lot more thought to put down on paper in those days, mainly frustration and boredom while one handed typing and nursing a toddler.
I'll start by introducing myself, since you've wandered into my lair of mundania. I'm Aedria- that's my real name by the way- I've always liked my name for it's uniqueness and later when I started studying gematria learned it has a nice numerological attribution. I'm mainly just a Mother, I have seven wonderful daughters who range in age from five years old to 19. In my free time, if I get some, I make musick using manipulated sounds as well as recordings of my dulcimer and thumb piano or any various noisy instrument. This is not done nearly as often as it used to, I've focused a lot of my mind elsewhere these last few years and we've dropped from five releases a year to one a year at best. The band is called ctephin, and it is classified as dark ambient noise as a close approximation of its genre. When we play live we generally go all out and do full magical invocations, the audience is always perplexed afterward.
I started studying the Mysteries, as I've said before, back in 2007, getting very interested in 2008 when I signed my oath and task as a student of the Order A.'.A.'. . I've gradually grown in that, learning more about myself in the process than I really intended to, and finding that the Work is much more difficult than I ever dreamed possible with very little reward. I eventually joined the Ordo Templi Orientis and got involved in that and have been working on this corporal level to do some good in promulgating the Law of Thelema, which I humbly ascribe to. (For anyone who does not know what Thelema is it means "Will" and it is a belief structure and Law which was received by Aleister Crowley in the early part of the 20th century with his communication with a praeter-natural entity who transmitted the Book of the Law or Liber AL vel Legis. There are many definitions of this and I do not care to go into them at this time.).
My interest in the occult has spurred me to practice various methods of ceremonial magic, and this blog is the musings of a Mother, Musician and Magician. I hope that it is enjoyed.
I'll start by introducing myself, since you've wandered into my lair of mundania. I'm Aedria- that's my real name by the way- I've always liked my name for it's uniqueness and later when I started studying gematria learned it has a nice numerological attribution. I'm mainly just a Mother, I have seven wonderful daughters who range in age from five years old to 19. In my free time, if I get some, I make musick using manipulated sounds as well as recordings of my dulcimer and thumb piano or any various noisy instrument. This is not done nearly as often as it used to, I've focused a lot of my mind elsewhere these last few years and we've dropped from five releases a year to one a year at best. The band is called ctephin, and it is classified as dark ambient noise as a close approximation of its genre. When we play live we generally go all out and do full magical invocations, the audience is always perplexed afterward.
I started studying the Mysteries, as I've said before, back in 2007, getting very interested in 2008 when I signed my oath and task as a student of the Order A.'.A.'. . I've gradually grown in that, learning more about myself in the process than I really intended to, and finding that the Work is much more difficult than I ever dreamed possible with very little reward. I eventually joined the Ordo Templi Orientis and got involved in that and have been working on this corporal level to do some good in promulgating the Law of Thelema, which I humbly ascribe to. (For anyone who does not know what Thelema is it means "Will" and it is a belief structure and Law which was received by Aleister Crowley in the early part of the 20th century with his communication with a praeter-natural entity who transmitted the Book of the Law or Liber AL vel Legis. There are many definitions of this and I do not care to go into them at this time.).
My interest in the occult has spurred me to practice various methods of ceremonial magic, and this blog is the musings of a Mother, Musician and Magician. I hope that it is enjoyed.
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