I have been a horribly neglectful aspirant and blogger. Focusing on building a business within my new career, which has been taking off and making me feel pretty and worthwhile. On the back burner is magick, I have studied and learned various new and sundry things but I have not really mingled with the masses to discuss it and although my business jumped off because of my affiliations with certain groups I have not been back to my local OTO body in more than a month while I learn this new career and lose a bunch of weight and wear makeup and put on business suits.
Over the last 9 months or so I've gotten myself down to my goal weight, after having ballooning up to more than 230 pounds and wearing a size 22. I'm down to 147 (my IQ by the way) and wearing a size 9. Do the math, it's an incredible transformation. I haven't seen the girl I was before for a long time, I've been hiding under a mask of weight and low self-esteem thinking that I could not change the universe and I could not be pretty or successful or even less than 200 pounds. The wonderful sisters and friends who have accepted me into the fold of corporate America have been so integral to the change, encouraging me to thrive and to reach for success and wealth. I've since July gotten my insurance producer's license and miraculously have been working at a place for the longest I've ever worked at one single place with not an inkling of desire to leave nor any least little bit of corporate fatigue.
I do all of these things, because I have not been able to do the Great Work effectively due to my insecurity and my inability to step out into the world and be an adult. It is really liberating! When I have gotten more entrenched and my business is stable I will be better equipped to do my Great Work. Maybe this IS my Great Work. Who knows.
On the 3rd of October I scribed a very interesting session, thought I'd share it:
A small illumination on the elusive Liber Legis Key
Scribe O.V.
This is the record of a session which occurred on Monday, October 3, 2011 ev.
There were no invocations, this was not within ritual space.
The time was 4:00 a.m. The location located at 3211 N. McKinley, in Oklahoma City, OK. Present were O.V. (scribe), Stephan Hughes, Christina Williams, and David Kujac (a non-initiate profane man). The attitude was quiet, close knit friendship. The weather was mild and temperate, slightly wet, upper 70’s.
The occasion was a spontaneous gathering to distract OV from another miscarriage, the second one this year, which had started on Sunday Oct. 2 at noon.
The coordinates to the location this was received are: 97W36 and 35N24.
The astrological conditions were: An iv19 Sol 10° Libra, Luna 7° Capricorn Dies Lunae.
Sun : 9Lib49 - 0:00' (d) [ 2nd house] [-] +0.984 - House cusp 1: 26Leo22
Moon: 0Cap27 + 1:12' (F) [ 5th house] [-] ______ - House cusp 2: 20Vir24
Merc: 13Lib19 + 0:56' (-) [ 2nd house] [-] +1.724 - House cusp 3: 19Lib04
Venu: 22Lib42 + 0:52' (R) [ 3rd house] [-] +1.244 - House cusp 4: 21Sco48
Mars: 8Leo36 + 1:09' (-) [12th house] [-] +0.590 - House cusp 5: 25Sag43
Jupi: 8Tau22 R - 1:28' (-) [ 9th house] [R] -0.104 - House cusp 6: 27Cap39
Satu: 18Lib49 + 2:15' (e) [ 2nd house] [-] +0.121 - House cusp 7: 26Aqu22
Uran: 2Ari17 R - 0:46' (-) [ 8th house] [e] -0.040 - House cusp 8: 20Pis24
Nept: 28Aqu30 R - 0:33' (-) [ 7th house] [-] -0.019 - House cusp 9: 19Ari04
Plut: 4Cap56 + 4:11' (-) [ 5th house]
Cradle from Sun: 9Lib49 to Mar: 8Leo36 to For: 5Gem44 to Ura: 2Ari17
Cradle from Mer: 13Lib19 to Mar: 8Leo36 to For: 5Gem44 to Ura: 2Ari17
T-Square from Plu: 4Cap56 to Sun: 9Lib49 and Ura: 2Ari17
There was no alcohol, energy drinks were consumed.
The conversation had been leaning towards Christina and Stephan trying to explain to Stephan’s friend David (who was on amphetamines at the time) that he lived the Law of Thelema without even knowing it.
This conversation spurred David to relate his personal experience of imprisonment. David began to relate a story about how he had been in solitary confinement for an extended period of time, and had ‘communication’ from some sort of thing which related to him that he was ‘evil’. We listened intently. It seemed to be an effective abramelin type experience.
This conversation occurred outdoors on the front porch.
We had had just returned to the bedroom, where I sat at my computer desk with David on a low chair next to me. Stephan and Christina were sitting on my bed.
David was very animate and said “all he knows” is that he was “very important”, and would do something very important. He said, flailing his arms wildly, “I will give the world the key that unlocks all”. When asked what he meant by this he started to describe specifically that he would find something that had to do with some kind of inter-dimensional shift of some sort, which he started to explain, but briefly.
The scribe had been piqued by his determined and resolute statement that he was going to do something very important and had the key. So handed him the Book of the Law, specifically Liber ABA, opened to the typeset of chapter II verse 76, and said to him “decipher this, then, if you have that key”.
A little about David, he is a good friend, his birthday is October 12. He is a man who comes and goes from our home frequently, and he has a spotted background. He calls our home “sanctuary” and said that he comes here because this is the only place he can truly be who he is without someone telling him what he’s doing is wrong. We consider him to be a ‘brother’, although he is not learned nor initiate. We have known him for approximately 4 years.
He is recently separated from his wife, and he has related to us several times that he is frustrated with his own behavior as he feels he is ‘evil’ and does bad things.
He is profane, an agnostic, not religious at all. He has a very strong demeanor, is very loyal yet rather violent towards those who do him wrong. He frequently makes small mistakes that land him in prison for lengths of time. He is comfortable to be around; a familiar friend whom I have never felt threatened by and has never wronged us in any way. He has a spiritual demeanor, but in the sense that he has that ‘energy’ and not in the sense that he is learned in anything but street sense. He is slight in build, losing his hair, and in his early 30’s.
He has not had contact with the Book of the Law beyond knowing we have it on our altars. He did not have knowledge of the coming about of the book nor any of its contents further than what we told him. We gave him facts when asked direct questions relating the origins of the book using Genesis Libri Al as reference. We did not relate to him some of the deeper things about the book or its reasons at all. He has never read the book of the Law. He is not an initiate, does not identify himself as religious. Is not familiar with Thelema besides our small influence, which is not great as we do not generally discuss the matter beyond surface with anyone profane. He has no religious study background, nor philosophy. He has neither education on Egyptian Gods nor any other religious system. He is an electrician. We met him while rebuilding the house that we rebuilt during the period of my Student phase. He has said that he has done several things which have brought him success, but he threw it all away at a whim because it was not fulfilling. He told us he feels best as a facilitator of illegal activity, but he feels very remorseful about it.
I asked him to decipher it, and without hesitation he immediately looked at the text, and pulled out his own notebook and explaining it immediately without stopping to think or evaluate it in such a way that would lead us as observers to think he was trying to work it out logically. He tackled it without a second thought.
He asked me to relate the letters and the numbers verbally, which I did. The first thing that we all noted is that when writing the letters and numbers down he put parenthesis around the numbers 24 and 89 spontaneously without having seen the writing of the Beast. When this was noted by my husband we opened the book to the writing of the Beast so that he could see the direct copy. Upon this, I pulled out my notebook and began to scribe.
He started first by saying “these numbers relate an event” and he wrote in his notebook (these things I copied as he wrote them) “Key” and then wrote and said “top-begin, bottom-end, left right= the difference. “Where the number is located, is the difference. “Love, Death, Life, Hate”, and then he repeated this but saying instead “Death, Life, Love, Hate”. Then he said “Depending on what the events are after you understand what the number stands for then you have the means to decipher what it says- the number”. And, “The lowest number is the least great event; the highest number is the greatest event”. Also he said all of this was “One paragraph” “relating to the series of the letters and numbers themselves” and these statements were correspondent to the first few numbers of the equation “4638”. These are the numbers he was referring to when he referred to the “Love, Death, Life, Hate” concepts.
The conversation started to be led by Stephan and Chris, with conversation in the vein of the idea that “absence makes the heart grow fonder”. I tried to direct him back to Genesis Libri Al and answer his questions as best as I could if there were questions of origin. None of us volunteered deeper meanings. David said that these numbers relate to an event specifically. When we asked him to explain again what he felt like these concepts meant he said “In light there is darkness, in darkness there is light. Light only goes so far, darkness only lives so long”.
To redirect, he asked to know the general information about where this was received, how and the circumstances. We related to him from Genesis Libri AL that the Master had invoked Tahuti in the Great Pyramid, for the second time, and had just been newly married. We also related to him that Crowley had formerly renounced Magick before this and had been enjoying debauchery and drunkenness.
Stephan said to him that there were three chapters in the book. David mulled this quickly and said “One call, three answer”. Then he wrote that down in his book. David became very interested and fixated on why Crowley would do magick at all again after having renounced it. He said several times something along the line that Crowley wanted to impress his wife, for power of some sort. He wrote “in order for it to happen, bad=good, light=day, freedom-not right or wrong. And said “he hadn’t opened his channel, his wife did that.” (this is important and noteworthy, David had not read the Book of the Law and had not been given any information on how the Scarlet Woman was important at all). He wrote “She changed numbers, not name” and “not name” he had underlined.
Then he looked back at the numbers again and wrote:
“Each block has the answer”
(Separate words)
4638 al@gmory3v
ABK
24
ALGMORY
“G isn’t a G” and then he drew the symbol looking like a C and = put together. He started trying to explain that that symbol was “kind of like” and then wrote next to where he had originally written ALGMORY “ opposite, positive and negative, exact opposite.
“Like, Life and Death”
And drew a formula, where he had written “AL” in parenthesis, above AL (which he had scribbled out, and then rewrote directly below) he had written “Light” and “Life”
Then between them was the symbol that “g” wasn’t. Then in the other parenthesis which was written like a mathematical equation in parenthesis next to that he wrote “Death” and below that and below a line drawn he wrote “GMORY” and then under that “MOR”. Next to that he had put a “Y” in parenthesis, and under that “= individedness”.
Under all of this he had written “(al)” and the symbol with the number 24 above the symbol, and then MOR.
Then he wrote below this, “3-4=X”
ALGMORY
him=his wife=event
(events (up arrow) the reception.)
Below this with a diagonal line which led to the statement below “size and width”
He also started to say to us that “she felt all alone, he wanted power, she had to feel this way”.
At this point he started getting agitated. Stephan started to put testing questions to him, and I tried to keep leading him back to the task by trying to get him to stop focusing on spurious things and back to the text. David was very insistent and kept on relating that the wife was important, Crowley had to show power, “why?” “To impress her, to show his power?”
Then he wrote in his notebook that Crowley called “Thoth, got Horus”, and under Thoth he wrote a Y which had a half circle parenthesis type figure under it and under “Horus” he wrote a X with the same symbol under it and then wrote =god of focus. Next to this he wrote “hid first ritual, reason for code”
And then he said “his choice, out of love, power”. And then “Wife changes it” and then wrote the numeral “1” over a horizontal line and underneath that “1 calls 3” and under that another line and “man woman child”
Then another equation under the words “the distracter”.
(3YX= catalyst) (segments of ritual).
Under this he wrote 1901 “abandons magic”
and 1__ = 2
pos neg
Under this he wrote “X+Y=” and a drawn Swastika (my note CICT)
He then related that X=stopping point between 1st and second part of equation.
2/4 8/9
Under this 24 the word “begin” is underneath, and 89 with the word “end” underneath.
His next few things to say related to the 24 and the 89. In the text, he points out, the lines of the parenthesis are pointing in such a way as to show one number is higher than another, and the direction of the movement and shapes of the lines of the parenthesis are made in such a way as to illustrate that. He was saying that these are coordinates, and that there would be something found (the original ritual is what he kept saying it was) at the coordinates as they are written.
All of this started to wear on him, he stopped and did not even try to go into solving the RPSTOVAL. He was not told not to do this, it was also his spontaneous reaction to the equation. This all stopped just before sunrise on Monday morning.
The next day I asked him to write down a little better explanation of what he was trying to explain to us earlier. He was still mercurial. This next part is an explanation of illustrations he had drawn on Tuesday October 4, at 2:00 p.m. The conditions this time were quieter, also in my bedroom, but he was rushed, and did not spend more than 20 minutes. There were no other observers other than myself and my husband.
I handed David a notebook on which to write these things down. He asked for the writing of the Beast so he could look further into it. He started to write in the notebook, starting with drawing some illustrations and the words: “(Note) looking through”.
He wrote the word “west” With parenthesis similar to what Crowley had written for the numbers in the equation over the letter “D” with the number 4 underneath with the curved parenthesis below, the lines above and below the numbers he said pointed to a directional location. Next to that he wrote again under the number 4 an arrow pointing to the parenthesis and wrote “west”. Next to that, drawn again as if it were an equation: “(D4) or (L4)” The word “or” and then “L” over the number “4” with parenthesis above and below with “west” written above and below each line of the parenthesis.
With a clear line demarcating the next part he had illustrated:
The word “East” above the number 8 (with parenthesis line above the 8) and below that a 9 with the number nine slightly lower than the 8 and a straight line below the nine (and a little bit off to the right) and then an arrow below that line drawn under the 9 which underneath has a curve “(“and the words - “equator line” written next to it.
Then he wrote, after making another clear demarcation of a straight line,
(“Key notes?”)
“Line one” written underneath those words.
(I need to insert the printed notes here for credibility, and I have not collected yet his original notes although I copied directly from his generally everything he wrote as he spoke.)
He pointed out that on page 21 there is a circle with a half line through it, he drew it
and wrote an arrow pointing towards it and wrote “vertical coordinates”
Then he drew a hyperbola or an hourglass sort of figure, and was said to us that what we’re looking for will be found at the central point of that hyperbola where the curved lines meet in the middle. He also wrote” N.” and under that 21 “or” and scribbled out a number. To the left of that in the median of the paper he wrote 73 over 14, a line underneath that, a “15” under that and directly under that the number 76. Next to that he had written 37 on the same line as the number 15, next to the 21, and over the number 18 which is o the same line as the number 76. On the same line on the paper he had drawn the letter “N.” (note the period next to the N, which is frequently an anomaly of Liber Legis) underneath the N. the number 21 (note on the same line as 15 and 37) and below a couple lines he had drawn the number 6. Under the 6 the letter “S.” (again, note S. period, as this is exaggerated) Similar to below:
73 |
14 | N.
15 | 37 21 or (scribbled out 4)
76 | 18
6
S.
Next to this all the figure of the circle with a curved line through it, which he circled on the page. This figure he had discovered from the 21st page of the writing, and page 363 of, chapter 2 in Liber ABA.
Below that was an illustration which appeared like a hyperbola “)(“ with two lines through the middles, and illustrative motion lines.
Another thing he had written in his notebook previously on another page were the numbers:
73 |
74 |(24)
15 | (89)
All of this with a line outlining them, with the number 76 below the 15 with a line separating all of that. He said “latitude and longitude of answer” next to that.
He said the first part of the equation is a code which reveals the events leading up to the reception of the code.
He held the book up in the air and said there is something important on each page, and pointed out the numbers on the 21st page, and he also said that we should look at the things that did not look the same on each page, pointing out several letters and numbers were darker and were seen differently when the book was held up to the light and the page was looked at backwards through the other pages.
My further investigation found several poignant things I had not noticed before. For one thing, chapter III-22 “ordeal x”, the X is not an X, it appears to be an Enochian letter. Also, in chapter One, where it says “are not they the ox and none by the book”, (1-48) the figure of the X in the word “OX” is “)(“ rather than an X.
There is also a circle with a curve in it similar to the illustration of the circle with the curved line in it in the writing of the beast chapter 2, verse 39 where it says” secret, o prophet”. Also, it is interesting to note in the letter “K” and “N”, there are anomalies, the K being more like a V with a small numeral 1 next to it (and there are 5 on the first page) and the N being like an A and an N together in several places, AN. A name of God.
All of these things are preliminary commentary and not yet evaluated on a deeper level.
I haven’t tried to solve this further, as I do not care to speculate.
Regarding David and these things, these are important findings which lead to credibility that I can not dispute: This was also witnessed by two others who can collaborate with me.
1. David did not know the scarlet woman was pregnant, but had related “man, woman, child”. He also did not know that the scarlet woman was carrying a female child, but he had related 1 positive, 2 negative. He said several times that the wife was most important factor, her state of mind and her state of being.
2. He did not know that “in the scarlet woman is all power given”, and yet he repeated several times that Crowley could not do the operation without his wife. He had said specifically “wife changes it” and had written “she changed numbers, not name.” He did not know she had re-written the invocation to Horus and did not know that she had the authority to edit the Book.
3. He did not have any frame of reference to have attributed AL to “life” and “MOR” to death. Nor did he have any knowledge of the pure fact of these being exact opposites. Nor the word “individedness” related to Y, which relates further to the idea of “I am divided for loves sake”.
I personally had not even considered what is accepted to be ALGMORY it being read “MOR” which is the root of a word meaning “Death”. I had not even considered beforehand “AL=31= Light, life. A god name. MOR enumerates to 310. Added together, 31 and 310= 341, the sum of the three mother letters Aleph, Mem and Shin. Also the number 310 is the value of Hebraic words meaning “Trample, conquer, govern, bind, formed. Is, are, essence, being. Leo Iuveness. Or Habitations. “
These are several basic ideas which are important in Liber Legis, which were stumbled upon by a profane person only directly looking at the ‘code’ without further understanding of the meaning of what he was looking at.
I am sure there is more. This all wrapped up at dawn on the morning of the 3rd of October, 2011 EV. After he stopped talking, which he ironically did without paying any attention to the second part of the equation (and he did not have knowledge of the instructions “solve the first half, leave the second part unattacked”) He started to tell me directions to his mother’s house. He described the direction, and said “my building is not marked, but the door next to me is number 420, I think it’s either 416 or 418.”
I have some of his physical notes, and my own scribing notes which I intend on photocopying. He has told me he will give me the other notes, but I had copied most of what he had written exactly as he had drawn it in his notes as he wrote it.
He has related to me several times that he has more information, but this small bit is enough for me to take note.
