An iv19 Sol 3° Leo, Luna 13° Gemini Dies Martis Tuesday, July 26, 2011 e.v. 2:15 PM

Got up this morning with a brilliant thought in my head.  Went back to sleep.  Too much brilliance makes motherovchaos a dull mom.

My poor little fourteen year old daughter is experiencing her first big break up.  I don't really know what to do to comfort her other than to say boys are jerks.  In the meantime, school is just around the corner, Monday morning in fact, and there's so much to do beforehand.  I have not seen hide nor hair of the child support I rely on to help with this kind of stuff, and so my state of mind is pretty stressed.

Have not really wanted to do any magick.  Mostly I've been making copious amounts of noodle salad.  Guess my magick is in the kitchen right now.

An iv19 Sol 29° Cancer, Luna 25° Aries Dies Veneris Friday, July 22, 2011 e.v. 2:06 PM

Have been battling with the interwebs, either one neighbor or another is my net benefactor; they do not know that though.  The interwebs are always sporadic, not great for a blogger huh?

It's been several days of 100 degrees weather.  We're huddled in the main living room with a barely adequate air conditioner turned down to 68.  That being a number we would hope it would reach, but the thermometer boasts of a cool 89.  It's much better than upstairs, and the temple is unapproachable except for the few and the strong. I spend an hour or so in there every day, that's about the extent of my monkhood.

The girlies are getting ready for school.  I've waited 20 years to have them all in school all day, and this year I'll be seeing 7:30 a.m. to 3:00 without kiddos in my house.  What am I going to do with myself?  I've got 20 years of sleep to catch up on!

Tirzah and Sarah just brought me a yellow locust who apparently only has 4 legs and is swaying back and forth on their fingers.  I think perhaps they're trying to get my attention, so I'm off for another span of time while mothering.

An iv19 Sol 21° Cancer, Luna 13° Capricorn Dies Jovis Thursday, July 14, 2011 e.v. 9:38 AM

I ended up staying up all night last night, my mind whirring with philosophy.  Previous to doing so, I had been digging through my east altar looking for my hide scraping stone and found wrapped in a sigil of Furcas four lead seals which I do not recall making.  I had thought I had found all of them and put them in my brass vessel.
I blame the philosophy storm on the philosophy entity.  What a good boy.
I still don't know why the seals are multiplying.  Perhaps I've used mirrors too much.

An iv19 Sol 21° Cancer, Luna 2° Capricorn Dies Mercurii Wednesday, July 13, 2011 e.v. 2:00 PM

It's been hot, and the benevolent interweb skygod hasn't been smiling on me as much as I would like.  Today seems like an exceptional day, woke up to find the light on my laptop blinking 'your computer is now connected'. What joy!
I have been stumbling through a very good book.  Generally I don't read them cover to cover, that's just the way I learn, but this one is incredible.  It is called the Spiritual Technology of Ancient Egypt, by Edward F Malkowski.  I do not know if this guy is a Thelemite, but his work is bringing new light to my understanding of the Book of the Law.  Incredible insights on quantum mechanics and even the sacred sciences through history and the story of the Christ have been presented in such a way that I can see a paramount of possibility and it's expanding my mind greatly.
A few weeks ago I did a goetic evocation to the spirit Furcas.  I am finding results, also, due to that evocation, culminating in my ability to categorize and apprehend concepts of such abstract material.  I can't say enough good for goetic working, and my drive to continue and bring all of the 72 to the forefront has to be stifled by pure caution.
Speaking of this evocation, I thought I'd share my diary entry for it:

Entered temple at 1:15 a.m. for Goetic evocation as prepared for.  Moon is full.  It is not an auspicious day nor is it an auspicious time in the year for the spirit. 

Arranged temple with alchemical chain circle and triangle without to the east.  Circle containing tools of exorcism, bell, sword, holy oil, salt, water, font, incense and censor, key of Solomon and my grimiore book, two candles, dagger, pen, diary, sigil and all invocations and charge written and the drawn sigil of the spirit.  Crystal ball on top of the lead sigil of the spirit I had already made, in triangle, at first covered.

Purified and consecrated temple by thelemic formula, LBRP using wand, LHR using dagger, Sephirotic Prayer, negative confession from Greater Key, Bornless ritual, first and second keys after the ritual of opening the veil of paroketh to open spirit tablet.  At that point the candles had burn low and my incense was almost all gone.  Using the little light left, did the evocation of the spirit, and the welcome once the spirit came.  The spirit showed up quickly and immediately when I called his name the very first time in my summoning which I pronounced aloud and in english.  He was about twenty inches tall, and did not manifest as a form that had any substance, the light didn’t go through him but it seemed to bend.  He didn’t say anything, and I got a particularly annoyed air from him.  I made the charge to spirit after binding him in my welcome.  I did not get any reply from him after sitting quietly for a few minutes.  He just stood there, sometimes more visible than other times.  I finished sitting there, losing candlelight badly and would have to leave the circle if I didn’t wrap things up for light, and made the license to depart.  He disappeared immediately when I said “I license thee to depart”, and was gone visibly before I finished the entire speech of binding him to come again when I called, as if the entire hologram which was his manifestation was simply turned off.

Pulled tarot, what did I summon?  The Fool.

Tarot reading, Success being the central card flanked by Satiety and Queen of Wands.

Banished temple with Star Ruby.  Cleaned up the entire thing, put the lead seal face down on the black skry mirror with the other seals.  Summoning was concluded at 2:22, left temple at 3:00 am.

An iv19 Sol 13° Cancer, Luna 11° Virgo Dies Martis Tuesday, July 05, 2011 e.v. 3:52 PM

Dear Probationer of the A.'.A.'.,

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

If it 'seemeth' you good, it probably invokes the demiurge upon you.  Enjoy.

Love is the law, love under will.

OV

and my response:

Clinging to that gilded gown,

Tiny as a child

Time rolled back into nothing

And He smiles, oblivious of my pulling strain upon his golden flowing mane.

And pain.

It is as sweet as berries, grapes and wine and rosy cherries

Overflowing in great cups and bowls of silence and of fate.

O’ wise one! Whose great and fearful wonder

Tears the world I know asunder!

Blinds me sweetly in such light

As sun that parts the day from night.

An iv19 Sol 10° Cancer, Luna 26° Cancer Dies Saturnii Saturday, July 02, 2011 e.v. 10:25 AM

Today is the 13th anniversary of my marriage to my husband.  How time flies!